I sat beside him. I looked at him so close yet so far. He asked something about his project but he seemed to have other things in mind. I felt something, something had hadn't felt before.
I asked him if there was something wrong, but he told me there's nothing to worry about, yet seems to be really bothered. I kept on asking him, The truth scared me when he opened up.
"Its about us, and.. he started
"Another woman," I continued.
He nodded. I felt a bomb just exploded inside me. I wanted to yell at him but instead, I kept my eyes closed. Just for a while... I didnt want to see him, I'm afraid that my anger would explode.
When i felt better.I opened my eyes, looked ate him and asked. "How could this happen to us? I thought everything was fine. What have I done?" he answered, " You have helped me get over my trouble life. Time was good to the both of us. You have been good to me too and I thank you for that. I still love you but I have only one heart. I have to choose, I cant love two woman at the same time." he continued.
"I'm sorry, its hard for me to make this dicision. I hope you understand." Tears flowed down his cheeks. Silence prevailed...keeping myself calm, "I will respect your decision. I think we havc the right love at the wrong time. I love you and you me loved too. Yet, fate have other plans for us. It would be very hard to get over you. But I'll try. I have no other choice. Please dont cry. I'm the one who supposed to dry not you."
He smiled as he wiped the tears from his face. I tried to help but he stopped me fearing that I might make tears flow again. "We had memorable times together. Thanks for being honest. Yoiu made the right decision, why sacrifice the happiness of two people for the sake of only one? It will only make three of us miserable. If being with her will make you happy that's fine with me. The greatest moment on life is to let your special someone free.
"How could I do such a thing to you. You were so good to me, you deserve someone better than ever." He kept himself crying but without much success.
I wiped the tears in his cheeks. "You are my only babe. YOu gave me more strength to face the challenges that came my way. I hope you'll be happy with her. I'll pray that you'll have a better relationship, more than what we had."
He had told a joke and I laughed. A deafening silence fell... After weighing what might become of us after this, would it still be the same? I guess not.
After a few minutes. He bade me goodbye.
He planted a kiss on my cheek...His final kiss. I held him tight, so tight. We could hardly breathe. "I'm gonna miss you." he said.
I replied with a smile. I still believe that goodbye is not forever. I dont know, maybe in some other time and place well be together once again. I couldnt help it. For the first time, tears flooded my eyes, I wasnt able to resist the pain and tears...of a lost love.
That was years ago, so many things happened. Truly, its hard for me to get over him but I do have friends to help me. Friends who will always be there when I need them. I spend my time with them and to my study. Every wound can be healed through time. Time forgets, heart forgives. I'm glad that I experience to love and be loved. I wish he could read this because I want to thank him for the flame and tears of a lost love.
