Entering a new phase of my life and having our first child has been weighing on my mind daily. I have so many 'issues'!! First, how do young couples manage to afford it? but, i still have a hard time imagining how my friends and all of the other young couples are managing. 

I am so scared of childbirth. Not the pain, but something going wrong. I am a "researcher" sa ngayon :)) kasi, I spend hours on pregnancy and childbirth websites researching everything. I want to be as healthy as possible, to be prepared. When I read that 1 in 3000 mothers die during childbirth it made me terrified, even my friend told me how painful it was during the labor day. Cant imagine how will i manage. Its heart-breaking! How do moms to be deal with this possibility? Even worse, what about something going wrong with the baby? I don't know how I would live through it!  I read about all of these complications and potential dangers and I get so nervous, (God help me.) but Im excited to meet my baby boy. :) ^,^